Lurking….

There they are.  Just sitting there.  Staring at me.  All I can do is think about THEM.  They're so pretty!  And there are so many of them.  They're taunting me.  All fancy and beautiful.  They're so close - I can almost touch them.

Chocolate-covered pretzels.  A whole basket of them.  Big ones.  Some have nuts on them too.  Oh, and there are even some chocolate-covered oreos and rice krispie treats.

They're all I've thought about since yesterday afternoon.

Not about how wonderful they are - but how afraid I am of them.

Luckily they didn't arrive until about an hour before I was leaving them for the night.  But I thought about them all night.  And then all morning, even while I was doing my morning work-out.  

How on earth would I get through 8 hours of their wonderfulness without eating one?

I knew that I couldn't have just one.  Not an addict like me.

(I can see them right now, out of the corner of my eye.  "Jen!  Over here!  We're lonely!")

Why can't I be "normal?"  I'm sure that the other women in my office aren't thinking about them.  I haven't seen anyone even near them today.  Why can't I just have one and then that would be the end of it?  

I'm angry that they have so much control over me.  

But not for long.