When I was first thinking about my post for today (in the bathroom, putting on make-up - where I do my best thinking) I was going to title it "the march of death." As I've been writing about this week, I am "starting back" to Weight Watchers on Monday with a friend. My 3 months of debauchary are coming to an end. I've been on a week-long binge, eating all of my favorites that I won't be eating when I'm on death-row. I even stopped this morning for my last pumpkin spice latte, one of my favorite things about the fall.But when I really thought about it, it's really the opposite. This is my March to LIFE! (Another) beginning to being normal. I'm so close. I have to get out of this mentality that it's a bad thing, because that couldn't be farther from the truth. I need that switch in my brain to move over to healthy mode.
I think my main issue is that I keep thinking back to where I once was. When I started this 3 years ago, I was about 250 pounds. Right now, I"m about 60 pounds less than that! That 250 pound woman is not me, and it never will be me again. The other night I was cleaning out a closet and I came across my old weigh-in cards from when I was doing WW. I usually hold on to that kinds of stuff as a record as to what I've done. But I decided that they were literally weighing me down. I will never go back to that. Yes, I've accomplished A LOT, but I need to start over from now.
In a way, it's like I'm punishing myself for where I've been when I should be very proud of what I've done. And I'm going to do it again.
Marching on.....
Jen
I realize it might not be exactly what you normally get, but you could still get close. Starbucks pumpkin spice latte - skim milk and no whip - a tall size is 200 calories, 0 fat, 0 fiber, for 4 WW points. Not too bad! So you can still have your favorite. That actually sounds like a pretty good little treat to me. I might have to try it this weekend. Love Starbucks!
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